Being afraid to start and Wasting your energy

Content I found interesting:

https://open.spotify.com/episode/2XCJAb43d6b4cNLdKS9jSw?si=fd3c22640b0a45ef

This podcast about trauma. About how early life experiences shape the rest of your life.

It taught me two really important things:

-If, as a toddler, you were forced to suppress feelings, if your fathers reprehended you for feeling them, now, when you experience them, you will not only suppress them, but you will also despise yourself for feeling them. This is trauma.

-The mind and the body are so connected that you are more likely to develop physical illnesses If you suppress your internal feelings.

It’s really important that you listen to this podcast, its eye opening.

Thoughts and realizations:

I am always afraid to start new stuff because, after I start it, it loses all the potential that I had previously envisioned for it.

When I start writing, the clear ideas I had in my mind get confronted with the search for the right words, the right relation between them and the right context.

Everything is perfect before you start something. Starting destroys dreams, it confronts you with your reality.

This week I realized that I am afraid to start even thought I have been starting for my hole life.

So, start now, because it will never be easy. You will never be ready, there is no right time.

 

Creativity comes when you start without expectations, when you start with no plan, no idea where you are going.

If you don’t have a direction, you allow yourself to navigate the moment, to navigate yourself.

If you have no plan, you are not afraid of failure, everything that comes out of you is a success.

Creativity comes only after

you drop your expectations

you are not afraid to be yourself

you stop trying to be someone else.

Being afraid to start

               is being focused on dreams

               is not being present

               is being afraid to be yourself

Not being afraid to start (being creative)

               is being focused on reality

               is being present

               is being who you are

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As strange as it sounds, when I started working out, I started having a lot more energy.

I was spending more energy, but I felt more energetic. How is that possible?

 

Our body energy is not limited, we can expand our batteries.

Everything you engage in, mentally or physically, makes you waist some energy. But there are things that, after you recover from them, make you more energetic, and things that just drain you completely and don’t give anything back.

The more you work out, the more energy you will have after you recover. The recovery is key, your body needs time to heal, but after that, it will adapt and get ready for a similar workout. When you engage in deep focused work you also spend energy, but after recovery, your mind will be sharper and more flexible, it will be prepared for a similar mental task.

When you engage in consumption, be it a movie, social media, a book, or anything that doesn’t make you engage in creation, your energy will be consumed, and your battery will not get bigger. This is because nothing in your body is working, you are not pushing your body to its potential, you are just a spectator. So, you are spending your precious energy, and you are not improving your future performance.

Compare watching a football match to actually playing it, watching a movie instead of acting it and reading instead of writing. They all drain your energy in different ways. Watch them closely, see what they do for you and invest on what makes you grow.

I am betting my time in creating rather than consuming.

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‘You know you are a top performer when you need to lie so people believe you.’ – my brother.

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You never stop clapping in your life, the interval just gets really big sometimes.